Summer's over. It's a closed book for now.
Time to grow up.
Monday, May 28, 2007
Friday, May 25, 2007
Friday Night Escapade
If usually, I blog about my Saturday nights, perhaps this is the first that I'd blog about a Friday night. This Friday, buddy J invited us to watch Pirates of the Carribbean, at World's End @ Rockwell. I went to M's house to meet her there, went to Powerplant, met up with friends B & J for dinner ( which, btw, was really delightful - I love Sumo Sam now ! ), and finally watched the movie.
The movie, if watched after a tiring day's worth of work, will make you doze off to sleep literally. I was struggling to keep myself awake ( woah, I was so wasted the whole day from working, and this was indeed a challenge ), because the movie was so dragging. It was a huge disappointment in my book. There were tons of scenes which deserved the cut, but I don't know why they'd waste airtime , and the time of the moviewatchers with such drag, and I don't know.
After the painful movie ( which , in fairness, was funny mainly bec of Johnny Depp ), we went for some coffee, dished out on chismis and called it a night. It was a fun night after all. M was hilarious, B was being asked to air out some chismis, and J was being entangled into something! Hahaha it was so funny! And I was being some clueless gal who didn't know a thing. Drat. :)
I don't know, I just can't answer the question now - I was just starting to get to know someone better! Something's not right - looks like someone's letting go of the connection we had months ago. Too bad. If he does, I will, too. His presence here is the only thing that gets me going. Is an email that painful to write? Without it, I'd just start to condition to divert my interests elsewhere.
The movie, if watched after a tiring day's worth of work, will make you doze off to sleep literally. I was struggling to keep myself awake ( woah, I was so wasted the whole day from working, and this was indeed a challenge ), because the movie was so dragging. It was a huge disappointment in my book. There were tons of scenes which deserved the cut, but I don't know why they'd waste airtime , and the time of the moviewatchers with such drag, and I don't know.
After the painful movie ( which , in fairness, was funny mainly bec of Johnny Depp ), we went for some coffee, dished out on chismis and called it a night. It was a fun night after all. M was hilarious, B was being asked to air out some chismis, and J was being entangled into something! Hahaha it was so funny! And I was being some clueless gal who didn't know a thing. Drat. :)
I don't know, I just can't answer the question now - I was just starting to get to know someone better! Something's not right - looks like someone's letting go of the connection we had months ago. Too bad. If he does, I will, too. His presence here is the only thing that gets me going. Is an email that painful to write? Without it, I'd just start to condition to divert my interests elsewhere.
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
Fast Forward
I don't know , is it just me, or this week has been passing by really fast? My last, quick memory was my recent beach trip, and my back still hurts! Hahaha talk about sitting in the car for hours! I can't believe that it's Thursday already. It should have been Monday today. I'm in total denial, maybe because of the dreaded +1 year this June.
Quite excited again, for I have something to look forward to - watching Pirates of the Caribbean 3 this coming Friday. It's work mode for me this Saturday night. I'm into Shrek 3 too, but that would have to wait for next week. ;)
Where are you?
Quite excited again, for I have something to look forward to - watching Pirates of the Caribbean 3 this coming Friday. It's work mode for me this Saturday night. I'm into Shrek 3 too, but that would have to wait for next week. ;)
Where are you?
Monday, May 21, 2007
Here Without You
But all the miles that separate, disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby , but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby, and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby, but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, it's only you and me ...
I think that my lower back needs a good massage right now from the long roadtrip I had last weekend. The trip was actually fun with me laughing my sanity off because of crazy, still very much cool classmates during highschool - which made me realize, highschool was a good 7 years ago, and personalities have changed. Way before, our topics would range from terror teachers to pesky subjects, and on the job trainings, and mad crushes, but it eventually evolved into talking about work, relationships, and for some, even marriage. Woah, I could not believe that time had passed so quickly that I'm turning a year older this June. I want to do something wild, outrageous, and life changing this June. With my hair? With my physique? I'm still thinking. :)
The beach wasn't great to start with, there weren't anything to do in the place, but the company was sooo much fun that we ended in a very funny drinking session last Saturday. I ended up getting my tarot cards to read to each one of them while in an intoxicated state, and I wonder who was talking that time ( kidding, it's still me ). J's too hilarious that I could end up on the floor laughing. The Havaianas joke was so darn funny, and the picture taking moments! Tons of pictures again yayyy!!! Everyone's had a crazy weekend, I'm sure.
Can't wait for next year's outing again. :)
I was asked a weird question by someone last Saturday, though. Outta this world!
Currently Listening to : Here Without You by 3 Doors Down
I'm here without you baby , but you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby, and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby, but you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, it's only you and me ...
I think that my lower back needs a good massage right now from the long roadtrip I had last weekend. The trip was actually fun with me laughing my sanity off because of crazy, still very much cool classmates during highschool - which made me realize, highschool was a good 7 years ago, and personalities have changed. Way before, our topics would range from terror teachers to pesky subjects, and on the job trainings, and mad crushes, but it eventually evolved into talking about work, relationships, and for some, even marriage. Woah, I could not believe that time had passed so quickly that I'm turning a year older this June. I want to do something wild, outrageous, and life changing this June. With my hair? With my physique? I'm still thinking. :)
The beach wasn't great to start with, there weren't anything to do in the place, but the company was sooo much fun that we ended in a very funny drinking session last Saturday. I ended up getting my tarot cards to read to each one of them while in an intoxicated state, and I wonder who was talking that time ( kidding, it's still me ). J's too hilarious that I could end up on the floor laughing. The Havaianas joke was so darn funny, and the picture taking moments! Tons of pictures again yayyy!!! Everyone's had a crazy weekend, I'm sure.
Can't wait for next year's outing again. :)
I was asked a weird question by someone last Saturday, though. Outta this world!
Currently Listening to : Here Without You by 3 Doors Down
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Back from the Beach
I'm back from the beach! Although the place wasn't as great as Boracay ( which, for me, is the best beach in this planet ), I've enjoyed immensely this trip - I was able to make my skin a little bit tanned again ( which I so love ), bonded with my highschool buddies, and drank the night away playing games. Truly incredible.
I'm off to sleep. So tired!
I'm off to sleep. So tired!
Friday, May 18, 2007
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Crazy Things I Did For Love
Though my pangs of conscience, Will drill a hole in you
The follies of youth, have sure had the best of me for the crazy things I did for love. I was young then, and looking back, I feel all silly, and just laugh off all of what I did, as I bury my face in my hands of embarrassment.
I don't know. There are so much crazy stuff that people do for love, and I haven't considered myself as one of those people who have held their hearts on their sleeves and gave their all for love. Whenever I'd hear of a story of a girl who gave her all for love, and "couldn't live without a guy", I just stare in disbelief because in my mind, I feel that a person should not let his/her heart rule his/her life when in love. The mind is a powerful tool, that can save someone, too. Perhaps from heartache? Perhaps from more pain. How easy it is to say that love can conquer all, but when love takes its irrational turn, it causes pain and misery to some people, and tragedy, in the long run. First and foremost, one must love oneself, to be able to love another.
My name, meaning wisdom, makes me think alot. I have been known to use my mind more than my heart. But lately, I feel that my heart has been overtaking my mind to make up for the years that it had been suppressed.
I'm a little bit relieved that I didn't take that dangerous turn to love, I think I still have been sane enough, but I still can't deny that I do have my share of the crazy stuff I did for it :
* Way back in HS, I wrote a poem for someone I liked, and it was published in the school paper. Of course, no names! :)
* Way back in college during my literary class, I wrote painfully passionate poems for someone I liked in class. I published it in my past personal blog, and up to now, whenenever I read them, I could not believe that I actually wrote those. Was I that smitten?
* Last year, I did 100 situps every night for an entire month, for someone. ( Insane!!!! )
* I put my pride in the trashcan as I greet him and reach out to get to know him better.
* I've been continuing my writing in this blog even if I know that he reads it.
I don't know if that list would pile up in the coming years, for I have been taking my time to settle with someone level headed. But a thought just popped out of my head awhile ago, while I was in the car. Could it be true that the pain, and suffering brought about by love further brings out its beauty? Is there beauty in tragic love? Would I give up my wings to be vulnerable to the pain?
Hm....that's a thought to be considered. Do we need pain to feel?
The follies of youth, have sure had the best of me for the crazy things I did for love. I was young then, and looking back, I feel all silly, and just laugh off all of what I did, as I bury my face in my hands of embarrassment.
I don't know. There are so much crazy stuff that people do for love, and I haven't considered myself as one of those people who have held their hearts on their sleeves and gave their all for love. Whenever I'd hear of a story of a girl who gave her all for love, and "couldn't live without a guy", I just stare in disbelief because in my mind, I feel that a person should not let his/her heart rule his/her life when in love. The mind is a powerful tool, that can save someone, too. Perhaps from heartache? Perhaps from more pain. How easy it is to say that love can conquer all, but when love takes its irrational turn, it causes pain and misery to some people, and tragedy, in the long run. First and foremost, one must love oneself, to be able to love another.
My name, meaning wisdom, makes me think alot. I have been known to use my mind more than my heart. But lately, I feel that my heart has been overtaking my mind to make up for the years that it had been suppressed.
I'm a little bit relieved that I didn't take that dangerous turn to love, I think I still have been sane enough, but I still can't deny that I do have my share of the crazy stuff I did for it :
* Way back in HS, I wrote a poem for someone I liked, and it was published in the school paper. Of course, no names! :)
* Way back in college during my literary class, I wrote painfully passionate poems for someone I liked in class. I published it in my past personal blog, and up to now, whenenever I read them, I could not believe that I actually wrote those. Was I that smitten?
* Last year, I did 100 situps every night for an entire month, for someone. ( Insane!!!! )
* I put my pride in the trashcan as I greet him and reach out to get to know him better.
* I've been continuing my writing in this blog even if I know that he reads it.
I don't know if that list would pile up in the coming years, for I have been taking my time to settle with someone level headed. But a thought just popped out of my head awhile ago, while I was in the car. Could it be true that the pain, and suffering brought about by love further brings out its beauty? Is there beauty in tragic love? Would I give up my wings to be vulnerable to the pain?
Hm....that's a thought to be considered. Do we need pain to feel?
Crazy Thursday
It's been a wonderful week for me, and I feel more confident , and more determined to make it in one of my businesses as it reaped one of its sweet sweet fruits. A preview, perhaps. The entrepreneurial blood in me has been really driven lately to succeed because I want to help my parents, as well as spoil my siblings like hell.
I was in a meeting awhile ago with my college bestbud A's sister, M, for her wedding invitations. I am so excited for the invite that I will print for her because I really really love deciding on the design of the invites, and other printed stuff. If I'd have the liberty in the future, I'd like to open up a separate press for invitations. :)
The beach trip is two days away and I've been fitting my beachwear like hell. They still fit! Hahahaha! Thank goodness. :) The excitement is killing me. :) I'm seeing old friends and classmates again this coming weekend, and I wonder how it'd turn up!
And now, my literary piece for the week...:)
I was in a meeting awhile ago with my college bestbud A's sister, M, for her wedding invitations. I am so excited for the invite that I will print for her because I really really love deciding on the design of the invites, and other printed stuff. If I'd have the liberty in the future, I'd like to open up a separate press for invitations. :)
The beach trip is two days away and I've been fitting my beachwear like hell. They still fit! Hahahaha! Thank goodness. :) The excitement is killing me. :) I'm seeing old friends and classmates again this coming weekend, and I wonder how it'd turn up!
And now, my literary piece for the week...:)
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
A Beautiful Day
Though I've tried before to tell him, of the feelings I have for him in my heart
Every time that I come near him, I just lose my nerve, as I've done from the start
Hmmm I stumbled upon this song while listening to the radio a day ago while doing some fieldwork. I never thought a song would capture how I feel whenever I see him. I can't believe that the feeling lingered for over a year already. I've greeted him twice, and is there a saying that says, the second time is a charm? Hahaha if this pulls off, I'm actually going to put an anecdote into historical records!
Today's a beautiful day. :)
I resolve to call (him) up a thousand times a day and ask him if he'll marry me in some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me, long before I reach the phone
Long before my tongue has tripped me , must I always be alone?
The answer is no. :) Somehow, I won't be alone. :)
Every time that I come near him, I just lose my nerve, as I've done from the start
Hmmm I stumbled upon this song while listening to the radio a day ago while doing some fieldwork. I never thought a song would capture how I feel whenever I see him. I can't believe that the feeling lingered for over a year already. I've greeted him twice, and is there a saying that says, the second time is a charm? Hahaha if this pulls off, I'm actually going to put an anecdote into historical records!
Today's a beautiful day. :)
I resolve to call (him) up a thousand times a day and ask him if he'll marry me in some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me, long before I reach the phone
Long before my tongue has tripped me , must I always be alone?
The answer is no. :) Somehow, I won't be alone. :)
Monday, May 14, 2007
Day Off
Today was election day and whew, no work today! But it's almost midnight, so an hour to go, and I face another day to work again.
I think I want to go back to swimming. I've been being unsporty ever since I've graduated from high school, and to think that I was even a member of the swim team. I just can't take other kinds of sports other than swimming, so I think I would be dedicating my Sunday mornings swimming to keep myself fit, and to make my muscles lean, and to lose some more weight.
Speaking of lean muscles, I'm dying ,dying to go to the beach this coming Saturday, I'm so excited to bond with my best buds, with favorite pal/soulsister D, and the rest of my classmates from highschool. I'm literally counting the days, and I just can't wait for it!
I hope the sun shines like the light in my eyes, and it won't rain!!!! If it rains, I won't be able to get my perfect tan to seal my summer as I bid goodbye to it.
Then comes June....:) I'm not complaining, though. :) I've something to celebrate this coming June :)
I think I want to go back to swimming. I've been being unsporty ever since I've graduated from high school, and to think that I was even a member of the swim team. I just can't take other kinds of sports other than swimming, so I think I would be dedicating my Sunday mornings swimming to keep myself fit, and to make my muscles lean, and to lose some more weight.
Speaking of lean muscles, I'm dying ,dying to go to the beach this coming Saturday, I'm so excited to bond with my best buds, with favorite pal/soulsister D, and the rest of my classmates from highschool. I'm literally counting the days, and I just can't wait for it!
I hope the sun shines like the light in my eyes, and it won't rain!!!! If it rains, I won't be able to get my perfect tan to seal my summer as I bid goodbye to it.
Then comes June....:) I'm not complaining, though. :) I've something to celebrate this coming June :)
Saturday, May 12, 2007
Driving , Dinner, and Dates
Was supposed to meet up with college friends tonight but my dad had somewhere else to go to that he couldn't drive me to Manila. I swear within the next year, I will be able to drive alone! For goodness' sake, I've studied twice already, and I haven't hit the roads yet on my own. It just makes my sex appeal go down the drain. Women who drive look so darn sexy- look at my three best buds. Hahahaha they're in total control of their cars, and I'd love to be in control of mine soon!
My best buds happened to plan a last minute dinner near my place, so M was nice enough to get lost on the road to find my house ( aww, she must really love me! ), and get lost with my directions to our destination again. We went to Italianni's for dinner, and I have noticed that we have been eating alot of Italian food lately. J was surprisingly not hungry - M and I derived our appetites from her and our leader eater won't eat. Is this a wakeup call for me to actually stop my binge eating?
It was a breath of fresh air to be with these friends of mine as we talked about our lives and J's crazy stories. K blurted out something really unexpected that made my eyeballs pop with surprise! M and I were both excited with the beach trip next week, and well, our conversation led to a topic that I have been avoiding for a long time now.
They were unintentionally teasing me about my past - about someone that I dated a long time ago. I actually begged them to stop talking about it, and asking me questions about it because what happened in the past was a very delicate topic that I would have preferred to completely bury in my past, or if better, erase completely, and permanently from my memory.
To sum it up, I've learned how to differentiate love, and falling in love with the idea of love the hard way, and I got burned. I saw myself falling out of love every single day until I felt no more. It was quite complicated, but I had to get out of the misery and guilt that I've felt, that I've chosen to hide away, and pretend that no such thing occurred. I feel nothing for the person anymore, but I still choose not to talk about that person, and wish to never lay eyes on him again.
I was apologetic after for acting like I've been traumatized by the situation that my bestbuds got worried if I was physically hurt in any way by that person. I assured them that it wasn't the case.
For me, disenchantment with love is a big tragedy - a soul shattering moment that leaves a scar in your soul, that can only be erased by a stronger, stable, and needless to say, genuine, true, warm love.
I've been burned too much that I don't even trust my judgement anymore. I've been liking someone right now, but I am afraid to be liking him for the wrong reasons. My friends assured me that it wasn't, it could just be that I haven't known him better yet. We had our long talk, and that left me admiring that person a whole lot, maybe the longest talk we've had in the duration of our being acquaintances, but let's see, let's see.
Next time I choose someone to fall for, I'd be sure to take my time. I need that someone who gives me that ultimately magical feeling that I won't be able to live without. Too bad, summer boy was just a two-hour thing. I will always thank him for bringing some magic into my life- which made me believe in the idea of love again. I wonder what would happen if we bump into each other in the future.
"You have bewitched me body and soul, and I love, love love you. I never wish to be parted from you again." - a line from Mr. Darcy from Pride and Prejudice ( the movie with Matt Mcfayden). I think this is the perfect words to profess their love for someone. If spoken, and felt sincerely, I think this is soul-mate material. *wink*
My best buds happened to plan a last minute dinner near my place, so M was nice enough to get lost on the road to find my house ( aww, she must really love me! ), and get lost with my directions to our destination again. We went to Italianni's for dinner, and I have noticed that we have been eating alot of Italian food lately. J was surprisingly not hungry - M and I derived our appetites from her and our leader eater won't eat. Is this a wakeup call for me to actually stop my binge eating?
It was a breath of fresh air to be with these friends of mine as we talked about our lives and J's crazy stories. K blurted out something really unexpected that made my eyeballs pop with surprise! M and I were both excited with the beach trip next week, and well, our conversation led to a topic that I have been avoiding for a long time now.
They were unintentionally teasing me about my past - about someone that I dated a long time ago. I actually begged them to stop talking about it, and asking me questions about it because what happened in the past was a very delicate topic that I would have preferred to completely bury in my past, or if better, erase completely, and permanently from my memory.
To sum it up, I've learned how to differentiate love, and falling in love with the idea of love the hard way, and I got burned. I saw myself falling out of love every single day until I felt no more. It was quite complicated, but I had to get out of the misery and guilt that I've felt, that I've chosen to hide away, and pretend that no such thing occurred. I feel nothing for the person anymore, but I still choose not to talk about that person, and wish to never lay eyes on him again.
I was apologetic after for acting like I've been traumatized by the situation that my bestbuds got worried if I was physically hurt in any way by that person. I assured them that it wasn't the case.
For me, disenchantment with love is a big tragedy - a soul shattering moment that leaves a scar in your soul, that can only be erased by a stronger, stable, and needless to say, genuine, true, warm love.
I've been burned too much that I don't even trust my judgement anymore. I've been liking someone right now, but I am afraid to be liking him for the wrong reasons. My friends assured me that it wasn't, it could just be that I haven't known him better yet. We had our long talk, and that left me admiring that person a whole lot, maybe the longest talk we've had in the duration of our being acquaintances, but let's see, let's see.
Next time I choose someone to fall for, I'd be sure to take my time. I need that someone who gives me that ultimately magical feeling that I won't be able to live without. Too bad, summer boy was just a two-hour thing. I will always thank him for bringing some magic into my life- which made me believe in the idea of love again. I wonder what would happen if we bump into each other in the future.
"You have bewitched me body and soul, and I love, love love you. I never wish to be parted from you again." - a line from Mr. Darcy from Pride and Prejudice ( the movie with Matt Mcfayden). I think this is the perfect words to profess their love for someone. If spoken, and felt sincerely, I think this is soul-mate material. *wink*
Friday, May 11, 2007
I Feel It
Somehow, I feel for this person who wrote this,
"Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there." -- Otomo No Yakamochi
It's something to think about, huh:)
"Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there." -- Otomo No Yakamochi
It's something to think about, huh:)
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
Yummy Summer
Okay, I think my PMS is wayyy finished , and I' m feeling lighter and lighter!
Yes, it's May , and summer's almost over, but the temperature is still wayyyy feverish hot. The remedy to that? Simple! A bowlful of crushed ice, adorned with nata de coco, leche flan, macapuno strips, sago, ube flavored ice cream, and a splashful of milk. Ahhhh!!!! This is such a mouth watering entry that I find myself reaching for some halohalo! Yes, halohalo is my official dessert this summer season.
If you look at this picture that I saw from Chewy Chua's flickr account
I'm sure that your mouth is watering already, as much as mine is. Hahahaha! I can't say anything but....YUMMMYYYY!!!! :) I'm so brokenhearted that my friend who owned an Icebergs franchise near my home closed it down already, so I am forced to have some halohalo delivered from Chowking, then the other day, some saba con hielo from Jollibee. Now, I'm asking my folks to buy me some ingredients so that we can make our own! Yipeee! Unlimited supply of dessert!
Gosh, I've been eating like a pig lately, reaching for chocolates, ice cream, and my favorite Chinese food. I binge ate last Friday with tons of dimsum at Causeway, and the xiao long pao ( a siomai that is a little bit bigger than the usual ) reminded me so much of my Shanghai trip last February. The xiao long pao served in Shanghai was absolutely exquisite. It had soup stock inside the delicately wrapped dimsum that you had to be careful in using your spoon to get it or the dimsum would burst, and you'd be eating it minus the incredibly delish soup stock. Wahhhhh I am craving for food right now!
And of course, I have my justification that I can eat as much as I want because I never get fat! Hahaha! ( now , don't eat your words later! ) Okay, I just think I need some exercise when June comes. I don't want to celebrate my birthday looking like a bloated pig. :)
Oops, I just remembered. I'm going to the beach next week! Hahahaha ! I am sooo dead!
Yes, it's May , and summer's almost over, but the temperature is still wayyyy feverish hot. The remedy to that? Simple! A bowlful of crushed ice, adorned with nata de coco, leche flan, macapuno strips, sago, ube flavored ice cream, and a splashful of milk. Ahhhh!!!! This is such a mouth watering entry that I find myself reaching for some halohalo! Yes, halohalo is my official dessert this summer season.
If you look at this picture that I saw from Chewy Chua's flickr account
I'm sure that your mouth is watering already, as much as mine is. Hahahaha! I can't say anything but....YUMMMYYYY!!!! :) I'm so brokenhearted that my friend who owned an Icebergs franchise near my home closed it down already, so I am forced to have some halohalo delivered from Chowking, then the other day, some saba con hielo from Jollibee. Now, I'm asking my folks to buy me some ingredients so that we can make our own! Yipeee! Unlimited supply of dessert!
Gosh, I've been eating like a pig lately, reaching for chocolates, ice cream, and my favorite Chinese food. I binge ate last Friday with tons of dimsum at Causeway, and the xiao long pao ( a siomai that is a little bit bigger than the usual ) reminded me so much of my Shanghai trip last February. The xiao long pao served in Shanghai was absolutely exquisite. It had soup stock inside the delicately wrapped dimsum that you had to be careful in using your spoon to get it or the dimsum would burst, and you'd be eating it minus the incredibly delish soup stock. Wahhhhh I am craving for food right now!
Me drooling over the Xiao Long Pao at Din Tai Fung Resto in Shanghai
I remember it was freezing cold out there even in my thermal wear! The food made my tummy and soul warm :) Yum:)
Okay, this must be the hungriest day of my life, because I have edited this entry as I found more mouth watering pictures from my favorite buddy D's multiply account from our Shanghai escapades! I NEED FOOD!
The incredibly yummy Mango Pudding! I remember this so well! Ahhh!!! The perfect after-lunch desert.
I remember it was freezing cold out there even in my thermal wear! The food made my tummy and soul warm :) Yum:)
Okay, this must be the hungriest day of my life, because I have edited this entry as I found more mouth watering pictures from my favorite buddy D's multiply account from our Shanghai escapades! I NEED FOOD!
The incredibly yummy Mango Pudding! I remember this so well! Ahhh!!! The perfect after-lunch desert.
Okay, for a last one, this picture is really making my mom so darn envious- she's been eating these in Chinatown since she was little, now, the Chinese have fled and they don't sell them anymore here! I found them in Shanghai - Sugar-coated ( well, melted ) Strawberries! Absolute heaven! The strawberries in China are incredibly big , and the moment you bite them, there is an undeniable marriage of sweetness and freshness! A refreshing, sigh-worthy taste of strawberry just takes your breath away!
Y-U-M!
And of course, I have my justification that I can eat as much as I want because I never get fat! Hahaha! ( now , don't eat your words later! ) Okay, I just think I need some exercise when June comes. I don't want to celebrate my birthday looking like a bloated pig. :)
Oops, I just remembered. I'm going to the beach next week! Hahahaha ! I am sooo dead!
Monday, May 7, 2007
Sleeping Like a Baby
Whew! With my sudden pour of emotions from my essay last night, I have slept like a baby. That was one of the most peaceful moments in my life so far, since I didn't have the luxury of having a good night's sleep for years already.
Someone told me to stop worrying because worries could actually ruin someone, and hinder something great from happening.
This emotional purging is actually doing wonders. Perhaps I should write more. :)
On a personal note, I'm quite happy a friend emailed me something that lifted my spirits for the day,
"You are beautiful; and driven and you are also inspired, which is a very strong gift in this world. Allow yourself to bloom. It's a choice;)"
Perhaps I'll allow myself to bloom. :)
Someone told me to stop worrying because worries could actually ruin someone, and hinder something great from happening.
This emotional purging is actually doing wonders. Perhaps I should write more. :)
On a personal note, I'm quite happy a friend emailed me something that lifted my spirits for the day,
"You are beautiful; and driven and you are also inspired, which is a very strong gift in this world. Allow yourself to bloom. It's a choice;)"
Perhaps I'll allow myself to bloom. :)
Destiny & Agony
It's the silent hour of the night again and I am left awake, unable to sleep, left with thoughts that barge uninvitedly in my mind in my idle moments.
Here's an essay I wrote for the die-hard hopeless romantics out there. Enjoy. :)
And then you exchange smiles. Ahh...the sweet expressions that will forever be etched in your mind. I believe that a moment can last for an eternity with a smile from someone you long for. The climax of one's existence, as from my previous poem that I've written so long ago.
Then, you grow closer, your bodies involuntarily move towards each other with growing familiarity as if you've known each other from another place and time. The soul does not forget love, and it knows better than the physical form. You sit closer to each other like your bodies have known each other for a long time, in a pleasant way, God knows what. The language of that speaks for itself, and does not need words to express the attraction that you have both felt.
For a moment, you think, that it is destiny that brought you two on the exact place and time, that the universe has indeed conspired this meeting of two once-familiar souls to reunite again, this time never to be parted. You take your time , take things for granted, and walk away without asking for anything in return. No ways of communication, ah...maybe destiny will bring us together again, you firmly believed.
Until the day you leave the world so enchanted you wanted to stay forever to, and you see each other again as he was leaving too. Yes, it was destiny too, but it was a painful one. Averted glances shoot your soul with arrows that add up to some hurt, and realization that only that night was magical, and reality could not give you the sweet taste of serendipity as you have experienced where you were still in the island so enchanted. The moment was made clear that you were indeed, after all, strangers to each other. You leave everything behind, fondly keeping the moment you had with him as the best that can ever be - it wouldn't get better than that, for a lifetime.
Then, why do you feel his presence , still very strong even after two months had already passed? You have struggled to go on with your life, swimming in a pool of work for chances of productivity and chances of forgetting him, but somehow, you chose to linger for a while and feel his quiet presence here. It bothers you why he wouldn't take a chance to take an effort to communicate with you, and as time grows by, you grow weary.
Weary that he could read your thoughts, and barge into your heart and soul with you helpless and confused, because it wasn't reciprocal. In return, you know nothing about him, he choses to keep it that way, and that is heartbreaking.
If you look at it closely, he possesses the upper hand and control over you, and instead of using this power to comfort and give you a pleasant night's sleep with a smile curled in your lip,
he chooses not to do anything , leaving the one he left behind tortured with thoughts of what might have been and questions left unanswered, longing for some light. A cruel choice of not doing anything. And you thought only actions can affect someone. Even not acting upon something can pierce the deepest wound in the heart of someone.
Something tells you that it's time to leave everything behind. Something's telling you to go find someone real. But something is telling you to follow your heart, too.
If only he'd say a thing, you can finally let this matter to rest. Was it meant to be , or was it another what could have been? Say it to end her agony.
Destiny is sweet when two people end up happy. But if destiny brings you to something that leaves you confused, and broken, it dances with agony, as it makes you taste the bittersweet side of life.
Here's an essay I wrote for the die-hard hopeless romantics out there. Enjoy. :)
Destiny and Agony
Do you know the feeling wherein you see someone for the first time, and your eyes just lay fixed on their presence, mesmerized, unable to think right? That perfect moment, that perfect place, that adds up to the beats of your heart, until it beats so fast that the it deafens you to the music of the place, and its sounds lay fixed on your soul. The noisy crowds and dance music just fade away, and all that's left is the breeze of the sea, and you two.And then you exchange smiles. Ahh...the sweet expressions that will forever be etched in your mind. I believe that a moment can last for an eternity with a smile from someone you long for. The climax of one's existence, as from my previous poem that I've written so long ago.
Then, you grow closer, your bodies involuntarily move towards each other with growing familiarity as if you've known each other from another place and time. The soul does not forget love, and it knows better than the physical form. You sit closer to each other like your bodies have known each other for a long time, in a pleasant way, God knows what. The language of that speaks for itself, and does not need words to express the attraction that you have both felt.
For a moment, you think, that it is destiny that brought you two on the exact place and time, that the universe has indeed conspired this meeting of two once-familiar souls to reunite again, this time never to be parted. You take your time , take things for granted, and walk away without asking for anything in return. No ways of communication, ah...maybe destiny will bring us together again, you firmly believed.
Until the day you leave the world so enchanted you wanted to stay forever to, and you see each other again as he was leaving too. Yes, it was destiny too, but it was a painful one. Averted glances shoot your soul with arrows that add up to some hurt, and realization that only that night was magical, and reality could not give you the sweet taste of serendipity as you have experienced where you were still in the island so enchanted. The moment was made clear that you were indeed, after all, strangers to each other. You leave everything behind, fondly keeping the moment you had with him as the best that can ever be - it wouldn't get better than that, for a lifetime.
Then, why do you feel his presence , still very strong even after two months had already passed? You have struggled to go on with your life, swimming in a pool of work for chances of productivity and chances of forgetting him, but somehow, you chose to linger for a while and feel his quiet presence here. It bothers you why he wouldn't take a chance to take an effort to communicate with you, and as time grows by, you grow weary.
Weary that he could read your thoughts, and barge into your heart and soul with you helpless and confused, because it wasn't reciprocal. In return, you know nothing about him, he choses to keep it that way, and that is heartbreaking.
If you look at it closely, he possesses the upper hand and control over you, and instead of using this power to comfort and give you a pleasant night's sleep with a smile curled in your lip,
he chooses not to do anything , leaving the one he left behind tortured with thoughts of what might have been and questions left unanswered, longing for some light. A cruel choice of not doing anything. And you thought only actions can affect someone. Even not acting upon something can pierce the deepest wound in the heart of someone.
Something tells you that it's time to leave everything behind. Something's telling you to go find someone real. But something is telling you to follow your heart, too.
If only he'd say a thing, you can finally let this matter to rest. Was it meant to be , or was it another what could have been? Say it to end her agony.
Destiny is sweet when two people end up happy. But if destiny brings you to something that leaves you confused, and broken, it dances with agony, as it makes you taste the bittersweet side of life.
Saturday, May 5, 2007
Saturday Night Lights
It's 3am (Sunday) , and I just got home thirty minutes ago from my Saturday night out. Gosh, I've missed going out Saturday afternoons and going home this late.
Buddy J, with M and K fetched me from work, and good thing that dad was in a good mood to let me go THAT early, I mean that never happens, and it actually happened! (do I sense some abusive tendency there? hahaha! ) We ate an early dinner at California Pizza Kitchen ( I just ate there last week , and here I am eating the same thing again! I'm not complaining, the food there is extremely exquisite )
After our early dinner, we went to Rockwell to shop around before watching the movie and waited for Bestbud J and beau to arrive. Then, we giddily went in the cinema, grabbed our seats and watched one of our highly anticipated films of the year - Spiderman 3!
The film lasted more than two hours, that's for sure. While it was a very good movie - I loved all the scenes, it seemed that Spiderman and Peter Parker's character development is really interesting, and with his relationships with MJ, his grandmother ( dealing with love issues ), and his ex-bestfriend, Harry ( whom, I might mention, is drop dead gorgeous ), and how he dealt with the nasty goo that made his suit black, and made his inhibitions surface. Overall, I was very satisfied with the movie - the special effects were superb, but just one thing - I just got tired from sitting from 8pm to 10:30 pm. It wasn't tiring to watch per se, it was an interesting watch while you were getting tired sitting there. The movie left me reaally hungry. My tummy's appetite is too strong, with friends who loving eating great food too.
We then rushed to Serendra, this really cool new strip at The Fort area, to eat dinner. We had planned on eating at the posh Gaudi restaurant where it is said to have exquisite paella and steak - two of my favorite food! I have actually recommended friends to eat there and bring their dates there, and it didn't disappoint at all. :) Well, to our dismay, we arrived there sometime around 11 o'clock and it was closed already! *sob*, so we just ended up in Duo, an equally great new restaurant that is well reputed for having the best steaks in all Manila. Woohoo. Love steak! We ordered three kinds of steak - one wagyu with escargot , one pepper steak, and one with prawns. I must say I loved the way their marinaded the steak with the prawns. The wagyu for me is a little too "marbly". It sure melts in your mouth as you chew it, but if it's not warm enough it may feel lardy. Overall, I enjoyed the dining experience even if it was almost a midnight snack. I enjoyed the company of good friends, talked alot about stuff, joked around most of the time ( with me being the victim, hahaha! ) and just spending the weekend with each other. I truly appreciate the friends that I have right now - God, I'm so blessed. I have a barkada from HS, two from college , my clients whom I consider really good friends, and special friends whom I meet up individually ( D, my favorite pal ) , and this group is special to me - we were friends since highschool, and still going strong! What I cherish most in my life right now? My family and my friends. I just think they're my most prized possessions right now. They never fail to make me feel good, help me and love me for who I am. In return, I give all my love to them :)
Speaking of material possessions, K is a total sweetheart that she gave this lovely pair of Havaianas Slim as a belated birthday gift last year. The one she gave me is plain white, just as I requested. I so love Slims right now because the thin straps look dainty on the feet, and just feel great! My first pair's a plain brown, my second pair's a Slim Season in tomato ( red with gold stamp embellishments ) and this is currently my third pair. Lovely! I plan to get this color (shown below) soon. After that, I might just stop buying Havaianas and move on with buying real-world shoes. They're just so darn comfy that I want to wear them everyday!
My target next time! Looks sexy, doesn't it?
Oh gosh, after this blog, I'm back to answering emails again, and wait til I pass out. I prefer spending the first few hours of Sunday awake, and the next few hours totally asleep ( sometimes, the whole day can just suffice!
Lights off, by now. :)
Buddy J, with M and K fetched me from work, and good thing that dad was in a good mood to let me go THAT early, I mean that never happens, and it actually happened! (do I sense some abusive tendency there? hahaha! ) We ate an early dinner at California Pizza Kitchen ( I just ate there last week , and here I am eating the same thing again! I'm not complaining, the food there is extremely exquisite )
After our early dinner, we went to Rockwell to shop around before watching the movie and waited for Bestbud J and beau to arrive. Then, we giddily went in the cinema, grabbed our seats and watched one of our highly anticipated films of the year - Spiderman 3!
The film lasted more than two hours, that's for sure. While it was a very good movie - I loved all the scenes, it seemed that Spiderman and Peter Parker's character development is really interesting, and with his relationships with MJ, his grandmother ( dealing with love issues ), and his ex-bestfriend, Harry ( whom, I might mention, is drop dead gorgeous ), and how he dealt with the nasty goo that made his suit black, and made his inhibitions surface. Overall, I was very satisfied with the movie - the special effects were superb, but just one thing - I just got tired from sitting from 8pm to 10:30 pm. It wasn't tiring to watch per se, it was an interesting watch while you were getting tired sitting there. The movie left me reaally hungry. My tummy's appetite is too strong, with friends who loving eating great food too.
We then rushed to Serendra, this really cool new strip at The Fort area, to eat dinner. We had planned on eating at the posh Gaudi restaurant where it is said to have exquisite paella and steak - two of my favorite food! I have actually recommended friends to eat there and bring their dates there, and it didn't disappoint at all. :) Well, to our dismay, we arrived there sometime around 11 o'clock and it was closed already! *sob*, so we just ended up in Duo, an equally great new restaurant that is well reputed for having the best steaks in all Manila. Woohoo. Love steak! We ordered three kinds of steak - one wagyu with escargot , one pepper steak, and one with prawns. I must say I loved the way their marinaded the steak with the prawns. The wagyu for me is a little too "marbly". It sure melts in your mouth as you chew it, but if it's not warm enough it may feel lardy. Overall, I enjoyed the dining experience even if it was almost a midnight snack. I enjoyed the company of good friends, talked alot about stuff, joked around most of the time ( with me being the victim, hahaha! ) and just spending the weekend with each other. I truly appreciate the friends that I have right now - God, I'm so blessed. I have a barkada from HS, two from college , my clients whom I consider really good friends, and special friends whom I meet up individually ( D, my favorite pal ) , and this group is special to me - we were friends since highschool, and still going strong! What I cherish most in my life right now? My family and my friends. I just think they're my most prized possessions right now. They never fail to make me feel good, help me and love me for who I am. In return, I give all my love to them :)
Speaking of material possessions, K is a total sweetheart that she gave this lovely pair of Havaianas Slim as a belated birthday gift last year. The one she gave me is plain white, just as I requested. I so love Slims right now because the thin straps look dainty on the feet, and just feel great! My first pair's a plain brown, my second pair's a Slim Season in tomato ( red with gold stamp embellishments ) and this is currently my third pair. Lovely! I plan to get this color (shown below) soon. After that, I might just stop buying Havaianas and move on with buying real-world shoes. They're just so darn comfy that I want to wear them everyday!
Oh gosh, after this blog, I'm back to answering emails again, and wait til I pass out. I prefer spending the first few hours of Sunday awake, and the next few hours totally asleep ( sometimes, the whole day can just suffice!
Lights off, by now. :)
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
For The Rest of May , Vita Brevis
The flowers bloom as the lovely month of May breezes in. In this case, the air is not so fresh for the moment you wake up early in the morning, you hear nothing but loud radios of campaign jingles by those running for election. The moment you seek a relaxing drive around town, your sceneries are just endless walls of campaign posters, flyers and stickers of faces who wish to run for office. When you turn on to watch TV and sorta unwind, argh. You see campaign commercials! This is a nightmare!!!
I don't even know who to vote for the coming elections. I feel that all the campaign efforts of the aspirants, are very much synonymous to marketing campaigns of consumer brands, or vainly speaking *my forte*, beauty products. When cosmetics commercials go on air, the audience are awed with the promise they give of improving their skin conditions, or more ambitiously, make them dazzling beautiful like the incredibly immaculate models in the commercial, whom we don't even know if they actually patronize the product that they are endorsing. The truth is so elusive, that you have to do your own research before voting, but some, sadly, only rely on TV commercials , or being victimized by the marketing ploys of some. I don't know. Has this country got some hope left?
Only one name that I'm sure to write on my ballot for senator : Manny Villar. For the brilliant entrepreneur, I love brilliant minds , and people with the ability to transform something worthless to something extremely profitable. I read the NeGOSyo book and got extremely inspired by his story. In other words, I'm so rooting for him to be President one day!
Okay, some other thoughts aside from this serious ones? *lifts an eyebrow* Played with a really cute 2 year old boy awhile ago. The adorable kid's my client's son. We exchanged high fives, ran around the office making sure he didn't fall or knock into something dangerous, he called me "achie" ( big sister in the Fookien language ) which my heart got all tender, and sigh, it just made me fall in love with the idea of having baby brothers. All my siblings are girls ( all four of them ) , and it made me reminisce on how fun it had been taking care of them when they were babies. Right now, they're all grown up, the youngest being 8 years old, who constantly competes with me for PC usage, but I still dote alot. Oh well. :) Sometimes I wish my sisters never grew up so that we would play all day long. Time is sometimes a traitor - one moment you want to grow up to enjoy what grown ups do - go to clubs and dance, date, fall in love, but sometimes you just want to be young again to avoid all the heartaches, and reality bites that come your way. Time never satisfied anyone, so I guess I better make the most out of any moment in my life. I hope someone out there does, too.
Vita Brevis. Life is short. :)
I don't even know who to vote for the coming elections. I feel that all the campaign efforts of the aspirants, are very much synonymous to marketing campaigns of consumer brands, or vainly speaking *my forte*, beauty products. When cosmetics commercials go on air, the audience are awed with the promise they give of improving their skin conditions, or more ambitiously, make them dazzling beautiful like the incredibly immaculate models in the commercial, whom we don't even know if they actually patronize the product that they are endorsing. The truth is so elusive, that you have to do your own research before voting, but some, sadly, only rely on TV commercials , or being victimized by the marketing ploys of some. I don't know. Has this country got some hope left?
Only one name that I'm sure to write on my ballot for senator : Manny Villar. For the brilliant entrepreneur, I love brilliant minds , and people with the ability to transform something worthless to something extremely profitable. I read the NeGOSyo book and got extremely inspired by his story. In other words, I'm so rooting for him to be President one day!
Okay, some other thoughts aside from this serious ones? *lifts an eyebrow* Played with a really cute 2 year old boy awhile ago. The adorable kid's my client's son. We exchanged high fives, ran around the office making sure he didn't fall or knock into something dangerous, he called me "achie" ( big sister in the Fookien language ) which my heart got all tender, and sigh, it just made me fall in love with the idea of having baby brothers. All my siblings are girls ( all four of them ) , and it made me reminisce on how fun it had been taking care of them when they were babies. Right now, they're all grown up, the youngest being 8 years old, who constantly competes with me for PC usage, but I still dote alot. Oh well. :) Sometimes I wish my sisters never grew up so that we would play all day long. Time is sometimes a traitor - one moment you want to grow up to enjoy what grown ups do - go to clubs and dance, date, fall in love, but sometimes you just want to be young again to avoid all the heartaches, and reality bites that come your way. Time never satisfied anyone, so I guess I better make the most out of any moment in my life. I hope someone out there does, too.
Vita Brevis. Life is short. :)
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